Tuesday, February 02, 2010
Received these mails yesterday morning. Will go through them here one by one. I shall start from the right, purposely one later you will know why.
Oh by the way, I've trimmed my hair and bangs on sunday. So the fringe is really neater :)
No.1 and 2 are dresses which I got online. Ok, the one on the left was from mytintedkiss and sadly it doesn't fit me although I like the pastel colour. It's too tight for me at the underbust zz. I do admit I was in a hurry that day and forgot to check the measurements and thus made such a blunder. Shhhh~ don't laugh I cannot zip up at the bust area la... *sweat*
I believe it will fit xl but then again, I doubt she'll like the colour. Nonetheless, if I don't manage to sell it I think I will give it to her for her bday la cos even if her 2nd sis doesn't like her younger sis can wear also mah, she's got 4 ladies in her household somemore.
The one on the right is from meltcouture and it's entirely chiffon except for the satin straps. Ok, I managed to fit snugly into the navy flowy dresss. I agree it's really pretty haiz but then...
I was already appalled by myself for not being able to fit into the first dress and then I only barely managed to fit into the this one. I think it's really high time I start exercising lor otherwise no matter how pretty the clothes I also cannot fit so no point in buying.
As for no.3, if you look closer you will notice the "on government service". I knew what it was even before I opened it -- it's a notification letter from MOE. Yes, my dears, it's regarding my interview for a teaching position. Actually I would have wanted to talk about this only after my interview and probably after knowing the outcome. But I thought that I should document down my feelings while they are fresh.
I applied online through the moe website on 20th Jan. Yes, I deliberately chose to do so on my birthday itself and I think I used one of my birthday wishes on this. Actually I was doing a lot of thinking in the past months; from the last month of 2009 to the first month of 2010. I realised I had wasted precious time which could have been put to more use. Although I do not regret taking such a long break, I merely feel that I need to start being useful, be it to the society (well, I'm not such a gracious person), to my family or to answer to myself.
That was probably the reason why I was half hearted when I went to the career fair but I still decided to send in some job applications. Last month alone, I've sent in more applications than I did for the other months put together. So can you feel what I was feeling? And to be frank, I'm really tired of waiting and waiting and hunting and hunting and when I'm not hunting I'm idling.
When I was preparing for the cabin crew interview, I was really all too enthu and still felt young. But when 2010 came, I realized yet again and after being constantly reminded by friends that I'm not young anymore. Stability comes to mind now. So why was I not excited when Kangtai smsed me last saturaday that SIA will be holding another recruitment drive in March. Cos I've already decided to give that a pass.
I'm afterall, easily affected by what others say. I know I'm still the old-me who still want to "let my parents feel proud" and that was the only reason I went NTU MSE. Just so I could get a degree and feel that I could answer to my parents. But I was too naive back then and didn't know that I couldn't just believe in passing every subjects and be happy with it. Ultimately, that was my greatest regret in uni. That I only started to work hard in year 3-4.
But we all know we cannot travel back in time, otherwise I would really like to go back to schooling. As you may have guessed, part of my reason to reapply for MOE is the chance to return as a student to campus. But that was not the main reason, if it was I think I would really suffer in future. Being a teacher is a professional job after and I think somewhere inside me, I still want to "let my parents feel proud", you know like their faces can have some light when they talk about me. Sigh, that's the thing about being the eldest but I'm really not a good role model on being the eldest at home.
Although I do not know what's my passion in teaching, I do know that I warm up to things. I tend to do well in things after being familiar in it and I grow accustomed to things and people and hence, I still dare to go ahead to apply because I believe I can do well in being a teacher. I may not be a good teacher but I will try and much as I enjoy teaching in general, I like to do the jabalang admin stuffs which others may complain of but I know I'll gladly accept.
Every job has its pros and cons, being a teacher is very much the same. I've read that teaching is only about 20%, the rest are marking and preparing for lessons, CCAs and other committments etc and the working hours are long. So what? I mean I know I don't have the calibre to work elsewhere and still be paid as well as I would be in MOE and teaching is a highly interactive job which suits me compared to sales job. I don't know, maybe you'll think I'm not matured enough in my thinking or I think too superficially but yes, I really just want a job now.
My interview is this friday morning at 1 North Buona Vista Drive, MOE building.
Wish me luck~
Labels: Interviews, MOE, Shopping
It was a love story @ 12:57
baby,just say yes.
baby,just say yes.
